A New Year: A New Start

I've never thought I would be able to feel those nice feelings again after my last (and it was the first and only) love in my life.

Those thoughts was before 2009 starts, when this year started I promised myself to put all those negatives things that happened since ever with me behind my back, and it would be only from the past and 2009 will be a new year with a new start…. 

I used to hear people talking about how is it hard to forget your first love and how much time you need to get over it but I never thought about those things or consider it for real, because I always believed in one thing that led me to the reality that everyone could shape his own life as they want regardless all those feelings and circumstances, or negatives and positives around. 

So what the hell is the story about all that? People always broke up, each one continued his own life, and just make sure the other is doing ok from while to while, and that's the end of the story, but the horrible thing for me that I was afraid of it been a while but I'm not feeling again any of those nice feelings I used to feel with him, but is that big problem? I don’t thinks so because I know that everything has its own time

And that's what happened recently, when I realized that I started to think i could be over everything about him, and It is only memories from the past and that i could have a new passion for someone who hopefully will be deserved it, this should be good sign for the new life I promised myself to live started in 2009. Hopefully!!!

In addition to the new start, that day I bought Carmen book about horoscopes details month by month and day by day, even I don't believe on those things but I just like to have a look at it, even though this book said right and correct things the last 3 years, but no harm if I read it from time to time, and I opened the book at the pages including my horoscope "Sagittarius" and there were this year main issue in a big bold letters " financial interests" , I wasn't surprised because I already started the year with some financial troubles, anyway these issues will never disappear from our life more or less I consider it a big main thing in our daily life. But it will never be trouble that stops me from achieving my dreams, Back to that book, continuing reading my monthly horoscope expectations, there were so many good signs talking about new relationships, good recommendations from work and family, new posts and so many good other things, hopefully they will happen, in the other hand there were some bad things that I didn't focus on because I know inside me, I can change it if I said so. But the most wonderful thing that got my attention was about the new love relationship that could occur among this year, and those many signs she talked about to get over something from the past, to be honest I was so happy to read that, even this should happen along time ago, but things happen when they are meant to happen none less none more.

All the time I hear people talking about my personality as really I'm a Sagittarius, coz I love to go out , travel abroad, doing things that including risks, I adore my family and love my friends and could risk my own life for the people I love, I appreciate life, I have my own believes regarding God and religion, hate rules and borders, in the same time can't break traditions and my own society believes, always speak up about what bothers me, and sometimes I criticize bad behaviors in a load voice, even one of my best friend Darin call me " Dr. bailey" that character in Grey's anatomy that can't stand without speaking loudly and honestly, even I'm not always like that but I can't see something so bad and wrong and not speak up.

Anyway this is me for now and before, but the new me is whom living now kind of new life using new methods and thoughts, forgetting things, and forgiving people from the past, and i'm sure i'll have a new passion about someone new sooner or later, I barley know but got that feeling that he will be wonderful, and deserve to try to get into him, and why not, a new year with a new many things, hopefully only the good things would happen to me and my family and the people I care about, and also hopefully these things will come back only with great impact to everyone around, also on all Palestinians around the world and for the sake of our issue.

And finally I asked myself when was the last time I did something for the first time, and I ask you people to ask yourself the same thing, and to look forward regardless all the bad things that happening in each one life, we need to break this routine and start living a new life.